11 Poems from 2004
wild leaves
wild leaves cover the ground
their summer gone
their night arisen
i see your face in my mind
in the cooling weather
in the growing dark
there is warmth
in your smile
in my heart
Poem 254
November 24, 2004
whirlwind
i am whirlwind
i spin free
out of control you say
but not me
can’t you let go
and fly with me
fly into the wind
what will we see
Poem 241 sawa
June 18, 2004
great things
i can imagine
more beauty than yours
but not easily
i suppose someone’s smile
is warmer than yours
at least it’s possible
i can dream great things
but few as breath-taking
as you
Poem 240
June 16, 2004
i am joy
i am joy
the wind & i spin
free
till we fall
and then we laugh
at our silliness
i am quiet too
as i rest & grow
till the stars
grow dark
Poem 239 – sae
June 1, 2004
more wet
winds blow
my heart is troubled
i can not sleep
rains fall
hot, wet and more wet
i hate it
winds blow
somehow different
i am an eagle
snow comes
the cold is harsh
i have strength
Poem 238
May 31, 2004
twisted turns
these hours are so cold
yet some i understand
the twisted turns of fate
are unkind
i had hoped for more
but i can help others
give them what they need
i go on afraid almost
for the hours are so cold
when it is so very dark
i go on
though it is cold
and it is very dark
Poem 237
May 2004
barely touched
i live but there are
only a few moments
when i’m alive
i breathe deeply so seldom
that it hardly counts
a life barely touched
– life passes
as if in a dream –
i dream life where more real
i with more courage
to fight against the end
Poem 236
April 26, 2004
as long as dreams
i am very strong
i can pretend
almost anything is true
for an hour or two
my eyesight is clear
i can see what i want to see
me almost touching your lips
for as long as dreams are true
Poem 235
April 16, 2004
shared and said
i will be true
i will write my words
on the wind
in the storm of the times
i will write of our joys
and of our sorrows
nothing will be hid
that can be shared and said
i will keep my task
close beside me
and i will live and die
can there by anything more
Poem 234
April 16, 2004
twilight
i’ve been between the sunlight
and the darkness of the night
twilight you might call it
but only in my dreams
as if frail dreams had more truth
than meat stocks bombs or deathrays
my real life doesn’t know
that real is not really real
mere false dreams in my mid
on what hard rock can i sit
and not make an ass of myself
not knowing my ass from myself
Poem 233
April 7, 2004
half a love
i see into your heart
and i feel this way too
yet what could we have together
weekend nights
a few hours
here and there
we could have half a love
Poem 232
April 5, 2004
separate universes
i dream: we touch
your hand in mine
we move closer together
a cold wind blows
with night’s coming darkness
under mysterious stars
time must have an end
but not our love
in separate universes
Poem 231
March 29, 2004
full of life
my mind is not calm
caught in a night of attacks
i do not rule my self
has my heart been broken
is nothing left for me
until the end of time
am i more an island
than a man
little more than a pulse
i do not wish to hurt
to harm others full of life
i wish to join their rush
Poem 230
March 19, 2004
gone somewhere
how can a heart beat
when it’s half empty
pieces lost somewhere
in the black of the night
how can i walk upright
when i can’t tell left from right
dizzier than a top spinning
mindlessly out of sight
how can i live a life
when i’m only half here
the rest gone somewhere
into the cold’s cold bite
Poem 229
March 1, 2004
knocked to the ground
spring is the cruelest season
the plum trees toss their blossoms
onto the cold earth & snow
the cool calm winter days end
and harsh winds begin to blow
everything knocked to the ground
my heart empty despite the heat
of new life and lovers
jealous of the grass that grows
Poem 228
February 25, 2004
does it mean
and if we touch each other
does it mean
that we are lovers?
and when we touch each other
does it mean
that it is for-ever?
and should our touching grow
does it mean
there is no other?
Poem 226
February 19, 2004
at times
i hear voices at times
in the night-time’s quiet
i love you, you say
i know it’s a delusion
you have little interest
and i very little life
yet when i am alone
i really hear voices
in the night’s dark quiet
Poem 225
January 10, 2004
far far away
you are so beautiful
light on a cold dark night
yet so far far away
i’d like to talk with you
about things in our lives
yet how can i begin
we could walk together
it doesn’t matter where
let the time pass like rain
Poem 224
February 4, 2004
a bit of lilac
can you imagine
a bit of lilac
light-purple under the sun
can you dream of hours
longer than before
i would be with you
can there be a time
we live together
there is no turning
unless i am with you
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