2 Poems from 1998
to retreat
rain falls on an autumn night
drumming on a nearby roof
can you make my love clean
give me a chance to retreat
and walk with my family
rain falls are unexpected
gusts washing trees to the root
Poem 122b
October 21, 1998
[no title]
wherever here is i’ve been here
passing through on my way home
(seeing nothing behind the closed door)
nothing calls out to the stranger
past cold faces locked in ice
we slide our hearts fail to waken
one step closer to my death
should i have stopped and tried to break
into someone else’s room
1998
[no title]
when you hear echoes in the wind
and strange dreams pull at your heart
you let go more than anything
being safe means being lost
riding fashion into a star
1998
poison woman
poison woman leave my dreams
beauty feeds nothing sane
your glory is my dis ease
nothing i wouldn’t do
with everything i would pay
to have those hours with you
a love which was never to be
she merely passed my way
and i drink a bitter wine
Poem 121
October 13, 1998
morning dawn
my love was a subtle poison
gentler than the smoothest wine
it made my head giddy and blind
the earth spun round in the sky
as i danced with besotten joy
crying for the look in her eyes
to wake in the cold morning dawn
dirty and feeling ashamed
no heart can be falser than mine
Poem 122
October 21, 1998
quite crooked
a candle tossed into the wind
its fire gone into blackness
forever on the other side
what cruel hand writes our story
ending everything in a slash
quite crooked, pure agony
your face is lost but in my dreams
i expect to hear your voice
but harsh light comes with mornings
Poem 119
September 24, 1998
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i am blown by a cruel wind
others have their gravity
i am floss tossed from leaf to ground
you are blessed with a calm beauty
Poem 118
July 7, 1998
[no title]
you are lovely – so lovely no words can say
i love you beyond time and distance
what care i for what came before
you are beyond my dreams awake
i love you more than life itself
you are all i wish to be
i love you, please, please, stay with me
i love you, please, please, stay with me
1998?
like water
it was not the day i prayed for
i burned for you and nothing
dumbs one more than pure desire
much rose and fell between us
we progressed in so many things
that my joy was almost reached
but today was not as i planned
an impatient departing
you slip like water through my hands
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